JAN 1

january first
the first day of 2009
i commemorate all the past with this last song
曹格-- 笑我笨
from today onwards, i will bear the burden, the weight,
even if i have to sacrifice my life to solve the problems

to this guy i know:
things that you do
i dun really agree or condone
there were times when i wanna step up and stop you
but i dun wanna look over-protective of someone who's not even mine
like who the hell am i
so i learn to turn blind and deaf to them
cuz its not my place to judge or comment
all i can say is please grow up dude
time to stop being an ass and learn respect.
my new year resolution?
im gonna be a bystander now on

happiness and pain

ever felt so contradictory before?
ever experience so much happiness and pure pain at the same time?
i was glad that u came and talk to me but i also felt the breaking of my heart.
ouch i guess
i dun wan it if u are just trying to pay me back or u felt obliged to give me becuz i gave u
it must come from ur heart. when even if i dun give u anything u will still wan to give me something

well i do now
its an indescribable feeling. leave u high and dry.

i will keep the mask on and the act going

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
im sooooooooo useless
so many things
so many words
so many thoughts
forget it

pissed

i feel like shit now.
angry with everything for no goddamn reason.
i think its becuz its christmas?
(LOL. who the hell feel angry becuz of christmas? i gotta be the first)
not really in the mood with everything that going around me

i really fuck care now.
it my way or the highway
im sick and tired
not just in the physical sense but also in the emotional and mental state
really feel like shit
ok. thats it. end of my ranting.

P.S.
good luck dude
dun end up like me
im already past saving.
it took all my willpower and im nt sure i have enough to keep me going

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

hmmm
dunno wat to say
dun even know wat im feeling and thinking now
ok


btw
LOL
dude... ya're tooooooooo obvious man
heard of something called discreet?
lol. guess im not the best person to tell ppl that.
HAHA. maybe u wanna try subtlety.
might work.


oh yar
good for you
hope u'll be better now:)