hahaha

things that were never said
things that can nvr be said
i dun really comprehend
why do people do things like that
so who's the clown now
you???
me???
please im begging you
grow up
stop hurting the people around you
you seen the most, heard the most
yet u dun act your age
just fucking grow up

lonely vs alone

it hit me all of a sudden
it just came from nowhere
surrounded by people yet
guess i should get used to it
hmmm
the diff between alone and lonely
not gonna explain it much

Hmmm... Dedicated to gyver

For making me update
Yepss
Done
Updated

WTF

wtf???
fuck you
seriously
please
fucking grow up or should i say
Drop the bloody act


hmmmm..
dinner with her was kinda nice
didnt have to think so much
just relax and enjoy the moment
It felt kinda diff from the rest??

haha
again another time?
=))))))))))))))))

Why cant we recognise the fact???

tiack

"tiack"
there goes the switch
it's joker face on
game time
made a fool of myself
hoping to cover up
all the while listening for any news of you
im still joking
afraid of going home
i dunno how to pass it
laughing and crying at the same time
yet still wanna say im fine alone
when everyone have left and im alone
i felt close to dying
i cant take it
im still joking
but at the end the tears started falling
everyday after work feeling worn out and weak
i ask myself why, what for and for who?
im still joking
will it numb me?
singing for the whole night
cant avoid tear-inducing love songs
i joked for the whole night
hoping someone will mention how are you now

51st

people come people go
seen too much
i am always here
looking seeing waiting protecting
silence


thanks huh dennis sim
make me paiseh in class only
i also dun why i tell him
maybe its becuz he's an adult?
only someone who has seen enough of life will be able to comprehend wat i mean without having to go thru it
maybe he dun really comprehend but at least he can try to understand
its really not something ppl of my age can comprehend without going thru it themselves.

as i fall, i will get up

thanks for the words of courage
you bore the worst of all i met
yet u exhibit courage surpassing all other that i met
when ever im feeling down
i look towards you
seeing how u fight on strongly even when u are at your worst makes me feel useless
for giving up and admitting defeat so easily

even thought u dun know it
u are the best source of inspiration for me
ur words gave me courage to carry on
courage to fight thru this thick mess of my life
courage to put my heart back to where it should be

courage
something i lacked
not in terms of daringness(i can watch a horror film alone no prob)
in terms of facing up to problems
in terms of facing up to my life
you stopped me from running away
from giving myself excuse to give up
from wasting my life away
i was never a God kind of person
not even now
yet i can understand what you are trying to portray
i believe in the words you say
maybe in another way but it serves the same purpose
I will strive on

THANK YOU
H
i didnt get the chance to know you well
even thou we were classmates for a year

"the courage to say it's okay when you're down low and everyone else's sky high."
i barely did it. i did my best and put up a facade.
that's all i could manage at the moment
but i wouldnt give up
the day will come when i am alright once again

JAN 1

january first
the first day of 2009
i commemorate all the past with this last song
曹格-- 笑我笨
from today onwards, i will bear the burden, the weight,
even if i have to sacrifice my life to solve the problems

to this guy i know:
things that you do
i dun really agree or condone
there were times when i wanna step up and stop you
but i dun wanna look over-protective of someone who's not even mine
like who the hell am i
so i learn to turn blind and deaf to them
cuz its not my place to judge or comment
all i can say is please grow up dude
time to stop being an ass and learn respect.
my new year resolution?
im gonna be a bystander now on